I'm still in love with Ben. Ah, how he makes my heart leap with excitement.

Six months. My most stable, long lasting relationship ever. <33

So let's see, what's gone on in these months that I haven't been posting?

Well, home life went from good, to slightly worse, to absolutely unbearable. A few weeks ago I ran away. They caught me and I've been grounded for about two weeks now. My dad thinks this is going to help me, but so far it's made things worse.

Thoughts have been going in and out of my head about wanting a baby. I'm young, I know. But I just want to feel that love. Eh. I don't really want to elaborate on this so I won't.

Speaking of, my cousin's pregnant. She's 17 and she's about 5 or 6 months now. I think that's kind of influencing me, but oh well....

When I'm 18 I'm leaving here. Leaving this place. I've gotta get out.

Well, I'm off.

I'm in love...

And I've never felt better. <3333

I haven't updated in a looooooong while but I'm happy enough to.

I just updated in Bleeding_Wings_Of_The_Angel as well. =P

So here's a poem I wrote. =]

This Note

So
I'm writing you this note
Letting you know.
You're something special blue eyes
Although I may never figure you out
You breathing in such wonders
And exhale a great power of voice

So
I'm writing you this not
Hoping that you'll grasp every word of it
Dreaming that you'll soak up every bit of it
Yearning that you can respect it
Just wishing you'll never let go of it

So
I'm writing you this not
Smiling
Knowing that you think of me
Think of beauty
Grasping onto every piece of it
Every line that was created.

So...it's been awhile. A long while. I went back to my other site Bleeding_Wings_of_The_Angel

Subscribe to that one instead of comming back to here. I dont' use this site anymore, and I might as well shut it down.

RunningOn_Emptyx is my main one I use almost everday. Take care guys

The Hopeless Dreamer <3

So, he gave me a letter. I got yelled at by my dad because a)We dated for 7 months, and he can't get my name right. Apperently that shows disrespect. b)He somehow got into our security building, and he's flaming pissed about that, and is going to have him arrested the next time he breaks in.

My cuff he gave back still smells like him, and it bothers me that it does. I got it, smelled it, then just broke down. The smell reminded me of all the good times, and of all the lies and decept.

The Hopeless Dreamer </3